Best thing I can tell ya is, figure out a new goal and path in life.
The cutters around here in my part of Oregon are not and haven't been working steady or at all for the last couple months. Guys are starting to sell and part out their saws for extra cash.
The mills that are still running are only buying from the big companies. Most are on lay-off just enough guys to keep them going. For a while the mills were cutting their own holdings but now that has even stopped. The only thing happening right now is pulp, that going gang busters, but they have all the cutters the need. Like I mentioned above alot of guys are so deep into not working that they are selling and parting out their gear.
Many talk of GOL but in my part of Oregon most haven't even heard of it. It won't help you get work here. The lumber prices are crap, and so goes the timber raw material prices.
Your 15 thinking of a side in the NG. Go full time and try to get a side cutting where ever and when ever you can. I got lucky, A few old timers told me to get out while I could and keep running on the side as much as possible. So thats what I did. It was hard to leave cutting full time but it was the best move I have made, but I still the hammer down on the saw as much and often as possible.
Think about this. Your 15 right? In time you will have a family, wife, kids all that good stuff. 99% of the cutters and logger I know have no benefits. No sick time, no vacation(no work no pay), no medical, nothing. Many do it, but that is hard way to take care of a family, if something happens and you need a Doc you are on your own for the whole bill, Jr has something at school you would like to go to, sorry no time off, Mrs wants to go someplace for the anniversary, no work no pay.
I know your dream kid, it was my same dream. I was lucky enough to taste it for the number of years I did, and for what little I still do. My boy is 13 and his goal in life is to cut as a team with me. The only thing I and my wife can tell him is how hard a road in front he would have if he did that. For him as far as we are concerned a job in the woods is not an option, and that is exactly what we tell him.
The glory days are gone for the most part kid. Sorry to tell ya that.
The only help I can give ya is, get an education and use it. There are still jobs out there that education will get ya, and you will still be able to run a saw from time to time. As far as running a saw full time. In my not always humble opinion you would be doing your future and what ever that may hold for you a great disservice.
Sorry kid
Owl