Long post. First post here or anywhere but followed AS for years. I have my own thing going on, do the contract climbing for a few local companies as well. Had a large 3 lead ash that was partially dead from eab that had to come down. Between size and condition of tree and targets below should easily have been 2 day or crane job. I shoulda walked away first thing in the morning when I found it was only a day. It was a contract climb for an increasingly greedy local company owner. First stem down to 25 ft or so and lead guy on ground had locked the rope up on porta wrap while hanging that log. Made him cut rope right at the log with a polesaw cause I saw him losing some hand skin trying to get it undone. Second time that day I had a talk with everyone about safety and paying attention, told them one day their boss was gonna get someone hurt bad or killed. Brushed out second lead and then 8-10 footers on a tag line till about 20 ft up. Right over two sheds chunking down 20" wood with snap cuts over two sheds with about a 6 ft wide LZ. Everyone chipping, raking, etc trying to make it all happen. The angle of the stem changed a bit and for whatever reason I was gonna need someone on a rope to pull some chunks but they were busy. Gotta make do. So in rare stupid moment, right before I finished cutting through I put my off hand on the block to push it to a safe place WHILE still full tilt on throttle. Saw(261) kicked out of kerf and buried itself along my knee. I saw the spurts and knew I was dead. Hollered to call 911 and told them put a rush on it cause I got like 2 minutes to live, I got my femoral. Blood still goin, I tried to tourniquet w/ rope a few times one handed cause the other was holding back the blood. Couldn't do it so I burned down to the ground and had them tie rope around leg. Tight, real tight. I asked for phone and called my wife, then mom. Just to say I loved em. I was sure I was dead. Funny after I talked to them it sucked but was ok. Still knew I was a dead man till ambulance got there. They applied another tourniquet and left the rope on too! Force fed me iv fluid through needles that felt like pencils. Short ride to open spot then life flight. Surgery for 2 1/2 hrs. I'm alive but still in hospital. This was just on Tuesday. Saw took some of the bottom of my femur. I'm here and will be till they're sure it's not going to have bone infection. I've been cutting since '03 so it's not the inexperience. It's the pushin beyond reasonable limits and complacency. And before 20+ people clamber to shame me over the one hand, no ****. I also know that lots that would chastise me have pushed a little too far before but have gotten away with it. Just like I had before. I know it's ultimately my fault alone. Please be safe people and if it's not right then it's ok to walk.