i know i havent been on here for a while,,,, you guys have got my tears going right now,,,,,,the last several days i have been running into road blocks,, one right after another,,, was talking to dad yesterday and he told me if worst case senerial i can go pitch a tent someplace,,,, yes that really pissed me off bad,,, and now i know 100% sure my so called christian blood family or the church i am a member of wont be offering to help,,,,, i was in the same room with our preacher and one of the elders yesterday and they didnt ask me if there is anything that they can do to help and they know what is going on,,,, so i know now where they stand,,, going to look at an apartment in the morn but that will be another road block,,, you have to be 55 to live there and i wont be 55 until april so may end up getting another slap in the face,,, the process is going to get the title for this place finally,, going to go by and get the paperwork int he morn and see if that will work to get it done,,,,, i am 1 more slap in the face of going back to the nut house,, was there several years ago and about ready to go there again,,,, had to have a friend of mine keep my pistol and all my pain meds,,, again guys you all have no idea what this means what you all are doing for me,,,,,,,,,,, oooohhhhh to this day she has not texted me or called to see how i am doing,,,, so screw her,,,, i would take another heart attack,,, kick in the sack or have someone shove a huge dried up corn cob up my ass before i would take her back,,,,,,,,,, ok, time to dry the cry towel