I know this is not the place but I lost my wife this week after 24 years of marriage. May she rest in peace.
Friend, I am very sorry for your loss. My family has had many people pass away in the last 2 years and I found some comfort in the following words. I hope it gives you some in this time of great need.
What is dying?
I am standing on the seashore.
A ship sails to the morning breeze and starts for the ocean.
She is an object and I stand watching her
Till at last she fades from the horizon,
And someone at my side says, “She is gone!” Gone where?
Gone from my sight, that is all;
She is just as large in the masts, hull and spars as she was when I saw her,
And just as able to bear her load of living freight to its destination.
The diminished size and total loss of sight is in me, not in her;
And just at the moment when someone at my side says, “She is gone”,
There are others who are watching her coming,
And other voices take up a glad shout,
“There she comes” – and that is dying. -Bishop Charles Henry Brent