Really at a "what now" moment in my life. Really do love being in the woods just cant risk another situation like this.
I read every post from the beginning of your trials and tribulations about a year ago until this week's "What now" moment. And I'd like to ask, are you glad you tried it?
When you hurt your knee I thought "Oh, ****!" I did not see anyone offer the fact that logging is the most deadly profession in America, which it still is, we've lost 9 thus far this year here in Oregon. I kept thinking about your family that need a consistent pay check and the 4 little ones who need their Dad. When you get busted up, it's over, and what was so easy at 29 becomes damned hard at my age of 58, twice yours.
Here in Oregon logging fell on such hard times in our little communities that people turned against each other - it's not the same as it was. The smaller the outfit the closer you were to bottom man on the totem pole too - sound familiar? Some great outfits made it through but there was plenty of human casualties too. Hard times came, the number of unemployed, on food stamps, working two jobs, divorced, and the suicides - all followed. Timber prices were at record highs this past spring are headed for half the value this winter, few businesses have that volatility.
And so I wondered (considering the machinist skills you have), about all the outdoor jobs (sounds like you would enjoy the outdoors) that involve servicing equipment that could provide experience, a solid wage, and were much less dangerous and would maybe more stable than the timber industry is. Men that work for Caterpillar or other heavy equipment firms at mines, oil wells, and landings all over the country could answer that better than I.
So as for your "What now moment..." That's only natural. Perhaps make a list. Maybe ask you family for input. Get their support and get some prospects going. Parlay what you have toward where you want to be. Make some long range goals too.
I'll go back to minding my own business now (I'm retired) and hope you check back in here again down the road - lots of good people here are obviously hoping you succeed. Me too.
Best of luck to you!